Saturday, December 30

It's 1 PM here and already I'm so bored and doesn't know what to do. 

Actually today I'm designing an IELTS study plan, but it's stop right after I feel annoyed. 

I was watching a youtube video when my brother makes my mother angry and boom the war is start down floor, before that, I'm about asking for some motivation from someone I really care about but his voice is so bored, it's like he doesn't want my call. So I stop it all. I start writing in blog, so at least in this situation I can still learn writing. 

Maybe people is not wrong, maybe something in me that's wrong. I don't know. 

Let me share something with you guys.

Yesterday I read an instagram story from someone I admire, she wrote about Affirmation. She quotes her lecture that there are 3 types of feedback. 

  - Evaluation

  - Coaching

  - Affirmation

Sometimes we don't like the feedback we got because we intend to get X but we got the Y, for exsample, we want an Affirmation but people give us evaluation.Her lecture said that the world would be a better place if we're more blunt about which feedback we're after. 

If we're seeking for Affirmation,maybe we should say so. (She does that a lot to her husband).

She have gathered a lot of affirmation messages throughout 2017, from her vlog, from the school she goes, the things that she wrote, the poems that she read and so on. She feel grateful for each and every one of them. But she hopes in 2018 she could grow into a fully content human being that doesn't need an external validation to feel good about doing what she does. That said she'd also like to be a person who is generous about giving affirmation to others. She think this world would be a better place if we strive t always be kind to one another. 

I think about it a lot. (even screencapturing the stories).

My test has shown that I am a very extrapersonal people, which is mean an external motivation is strongly drive me. I happen to happy when someone give me compliment, give me positive feedback, don't get me wrong I also love the Evaluative feedback and coaching from someone better. 

But maybe, I should try to this year, try to give more affirmation to others. There's nothing wrong with being good to others, nothing wrong with being kind. Maybe I should just try.

And I don't kow about this, but I think I'm not that extrovert anymore, maybe I should retook the test, I am no longer enjoying company from people, well not all people, I still enjoy company from some friends, but it is not like the past. 

I don't know what's wrong with me. 

Okay, I think I'm going back to do the study plan. 

Bye !

Asri.